If you want something, you have to work for it(work hard). Well, At least that’s what everyone tells me and maybe they’re right, either that or they’re completely off and my way of getting what I want is the golden rule. What’s my way of getting what I desire you ask? Well, I just take my bloody ass time. I would like to say that my way of getting things done is the absolute way but truth be told, it’s not. Having spent all these years “taking it easy” has done nothing but immensely slow me down. As this year sets and 2010 arises to the east, I think it’s time to not just ring in the New Year but a whole new everything else.
Looking back at this past year, though filled with a lot of good memories has also seen its share of grief, disappointments and errr..well you know what I mean(ups and downs). But hey, don’t let me get you all down if your year was awesome as I have come to realize that people have good and bad years. i have nobody to blame but myself really. I'm willing to learn from this mistake and try to be more involved in my own actions(not just sit out the bleachers). Taking more initiative and working hard to get what i want is advise that i have long been ignoring(i know, i'm effin stubborn, its a curse really)
But why wait till January 1st(this begins tonight)? Which is why I’m proposing to end 2009 tonight and ring in December 16 as the last day of this year(according to my calendar).New year,new outlook. Having said that, tomorrow will be filled with nothing but new beginnings
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Being Sombodies(Unrevised)
Looking back on today, when we were all kids, people would often ask us what we wanted to be when all grown up. Amongst the responses given by us, only a good few of us would actually become what we said we would be, I myself use to answer that question with a very confident, “Doctor!”. Eventually we all went from the comfort of our homes to pre-school and beyond. During that entire time, our parents and even our teachers would start to mold our minds and fill them with all these various ideas and concepts which would inevitably lead to us wanting to become someone when we do reach that oh so glorious point in our lives.
We had such vivid and expansive minds, limited only to our imaginations. For most of us though, where did all our hopes and dreams go? Only after such deep reassessment and recollection can we realize that our dreams have never abandoned us nor have we abandoned them. Our future selves have been dormant deep in our subconscious just waiting to be awakened and once these childhood ambitions do awaken, they don’t necessarily manifests themselves into these “doctors” that we wanted to be when we were young. The only reason we respond with “doctor” is because when we were younger the careers: doctor, policeman, soldier, teacher, etc are concepts that we understand and explains paths in our lives that we want to follow, concepts still unfathomable to us lead to such responses albeit these responses don’t stray far from what we would actually want to be. Eventually I realized that although I no longer wanted to be Dr. Derick, the desire so still help people as doctors do is still there. The human concept of thought works in oh so mysterious ways, that one can’t do away but rather go with the flow of our own individual currents.
Now, all grown up and hopefully smarter, when once again asked the question, we would be a lot more confident in our response because of a better understanding of who we are how we want to leave our mark on this world. We who have been blessed to be given the freedom to choose what we set out to be in the not so distant future have once looked back and thought to ourselves; what did we want to be when we grow up? So the next time you walk up to your little brother or sister and sarcastically ask what they want to be, actually listen to them and look back at your own childhood you may just understand yourself a little bit better after seeing how the other side of the question works. So whether we “childhood doctors” become real doctors or turn out to be something else, one fact remains, and that fact is that we all wanted to be somebody and somebody we will be.
We had such vivid and expansive minds, limited only to our imaginations. For most of us though, where did all our hopes and dreams go? Only after such deep reassessment and recollection can we realize that our dreams have never abandoned us nor have we abandoned them. Our future selves have been dormant deep in our subconscious just waiting to be awakened and once these childhood ambitions do awaken, they don’t necessarily manifests themselves into these “doctors” that we wanted to be when we were young. The only reason we respond with “doctor” is because when we were younger the careers: doctor, policeman, soldier, teacher, etc are concepts that we understand and explains paths in our lives that we want to follow, concepts still unfathomable to us lead to such responses albeit these responses don’t stray far from what we would actually want to be. Eventually I realized that although I no longer wanted to be Dr. Derick, the desire so still help people as doctors do is still there. The human concept of thought works in oh so mysterious ways, that one can’t do away but rather go with the flow of our own individual currents.
Now, all grown up and hopefully smarter, when once again asked the question, we would be a lot more confident in our response because of a better understanding of who we are how we want to leave our mark on this world. We who have been blessed to be given the freedom to choose what we set out to be in the not so distant future have once looked back and thought to ourselves; what did we want to be when we grow up? So the next time you walk up to your little brother or sister and sarcastically ask what they want to be, actually listen to them and look back at your own childhood you may just understand yourself a little bit better after seeing how the other side of the question works. So whether we “childhood doctors” become real doctors or turn out to be something else, one fact remains, and that fact is that we all wanted to be somebody and somebody we will be.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
To Santa
Dear Santa,
Christmas is once again fast approaching and to the best of my knowledge, I can pretty much say that I’ve been a “good” boy. Don’t worry I’m not going to start hating on you just because you never got me that Alienware rig that I’ve been consistently asking for (It’s been 5 years of asking and still no PC, what’s up with that?).
Anyways, believe it or not, there’s really nothing more I could ask for this holiday season. I’m a happy man, the people I care for are all still alive, and I’ve made new friends as well as reestablished old bonds. Honestly, I couldn’t be any more satisfied with what I have now (unless…).
2009 flew by in the speed of sound as I’m still coming to grips with the reality that it’s been 1year and 5months since I left the Arizona desert (sort of still feeling the heat though). I went back to my roots, Bacolod City hoping to find myself as well as comfort. I have still yet to find myself but thankfully I’m 1 for 2 as the City of Smiles welcomed me back with a great big hug. It’s good to know that even though you thought you have completely detached yourself, there’s always someone and somewhere to go back to.
Well, that about does it for me here, looking forward to writing you again next Christmas. Stay fat, stay jolly and say hi to Mrs. Clause for me.
P.S.> I saw you at the mall the other day.
Christmas is once again fast approaching and to the best of my knowledge, I can pretty much say that I’ve been a “good” boy. Don’t worry I’m not going to start hating on you just because you never got me that Alienware rig that I’ve been consistently asking for (It’s been 5 years of asking and still no PC, what’s up with that?).
Anyways, believe it or not, there’s really nothing more I could ask for this holiday season. I’m a happy man, the people I care for are all still alive, and I’ve made new friends as well as reestablished old bonds. Honestly, I couldn’t be any more satisfied with what I have now (unless…).
2009 flew by in the speed of sound as I’m still coming to grips with the reality that it’s been 1year and 5months since I left the Arizona desert (sort of still feeling the heat though). I went back to my roots, Bacolod City hoping to find myself as well as comfort. I have still yet to find myself but thankfully I’m 1 for 2 as the City of Smiles welcomed me back with a great big hug. It’s good to know that even though you thought you have completely detached yourself, there’s always someone and somewhere to go back to.
Well, that about does it for me here, looking forward to writing you again next Christmas. Stay fat, stay jolly and say hi to Mrs. Clause for me.
P.S.> I saw you at the mall the other day.
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